Forever Haiden's Guardian Angel

My Brother

April 13, 1989 - August 5, 2014

Two weeks ago I woke up to the worst news. Hearing the words that my brother was in a motorcycle accident and didn't make it shattered my heart into a million pieces. No words could ever describe how heart broken I am. My life will never be the same without him.

When we arrived from Utah on Sunday my brother texted me telling me he just woke up, I told him to head over to my place and within minutes he was at my front door. Gave him a huge hug and he hugged me tight. As we all unpacked the kitchen he laid on my couch, as we cracked jokes he joined in. Once people started to leave I sat on the couch and my brother got up to eat some cheesecake. I told him not to eat it all because Haiden needed it too. He got me a fork and gave up his cheesecake. He was over for another hour, we looked through Haiden's clothes and told me about his new food spices he got. The time came when he told me goodbye, he said he was going to home to make dinner and do his homework. He hugged me goodbye and told me he still needs to order Haiden's onesie, he already had one in mind but just needed to order it. Eric orders silly onesies for his niece's and nephews, so I was curious what he would have bought Haiden.

That was the last time I hugged my brother goodbye. Little did I know, two days later, he would be gone in a matter of seconds. 

Him passing away hasn't hit me yet. I feel like he will walk in the door any minute. I don't know if I'm in denial about his death or I just feel him around me all the time. I know he is watching over me. He was such a happy spirit that whenever I begin to get sad about him being gone, it's like he nudges me to remember he's okay, so I'm going to be okay.

Sunday 10th, 2014

"Last night I dreamt of my brother. He was happier than ever. I kept hugging him and I wouldn't let him go, he didn't care. He also held on tight to me. I told him I loved him and he finally told me he loved me too. I told him I don't know what I would do without him and he told me everything would be okay. That we will all be okay. My dream started fading but I kept on hugging him tight and he still held on to me. It felt so real, he finally came to visit me. I walked with him, side by side, we talked, we laughed, and he told me everything will be okay. Because he's okay."

That dream brought me so much comfort and peace. I miss my brother and his craziness. His laughter, his memes, his sense of humor, and his huge heart. He will forever be in my heart, even though I don't seem like I want to talk about everything that has happened, it doesn't mean I don't miss him, it just means I'm grieving in my own way. It's the best way for me and the best way to keep my baby healthy. The day my baby girl is born will probably be the day it hits me that my brother is actually gone. It's the next huge step in my life and he won't physically be here for it. I know he will forever watch over Haiden, just how he would have on earth. 

I miss him more than anyone will ever understand. The loss of a sibling is the most heartbreaking thing I have ever experienced. I love him so much and he will always be in my heart. Every mile stone, he will be there. I wouldn't have it any other way.

Until we meet again, my sweet brother.

"Don't cry because I'm gone, 

Smile because I'm free."

A Little Princess

Kenny & I are happy to announce that we will be having a beautiful baby GIRL! 

CLICK HERE for the gender reveal video! Our good friends Bri & her husband Jan made this video for us! This is their blog, check them out!! Natural talent!

We are so excited to be having a baby girl, we will spoil the heck out of her with lots of love & kisses!! We are so excited to be her parents & we are so happy she chose us to be her parents. 

Meko is still trying to figure out what is going on, we tell him everyday he will be a big brother but he just pounces on my tummy. So I'll take that as excitement.. haha! 

My belly is growing very fast & I started feeling her move a week ago. She's always swimming around & it makes me so happy to know she's in there having a party. Kenny felt her for the first time yesterday & it was so great. He talks to her so she knows who her Daddy is. She has him wrapped around her little finger.

We love you Little Princess!

POSITIVE

I took this test on March 14th, 2014. After finding out the great news front the doctor,  I quickly went home and took this test! I can't tell you how many negative tests I have had this journey. I will never forget seeing that "Pregnant" on the pee stick.

We left for California that night and has breakfast with our family and close friends a before we took off for our anniversary cruise. We told them all the great news and their reactions were priceless!! I wish I would have recorded it to watch it over and over again. Although I did record the reaction Kenny and I had when we got the good new from the doctor, so atleast I have that. 

We announced we were pregnant on Facebook on Mother's Day when I was 12 weeks pregnant, just to be safe. It was so hard to keep it a secret!! I'm surprised I didn't since I'm such a social media junky... Lol.

We can't wait to find out if we are blessed with a little boy or little girl!!

GREAT NEWS;

I OVULATED!!

WHAT?!

First of all, this is a HUGE deal because my body has never done this before! Like I mentioned in my last post I had another ultrasound scheduled for Thursday. So on Thursday Kenny came with me to the doctor and my follicle had only grown 2MM. I was so sad that it was only at a 14! Kenny quickly reminded me that we have never had a follicle grow this big, EVER. The doctor told me that it should keep growing and to take ovulation tests on Saturday and Sunday morning, JUST IN CASE my body ovulates on it's own without the HCG shot. And if I got a positive to call them right away.

So I had been cramping all week, it wasn't super painful but more than my usual period cramps. So I told Kenny that we should test on Thursday and Friday just incase. So I tested..

Thursday;NEGATIVE

Friday;NEGATIVE

Those are the top 2 tests on the top of the picture. But I kept cramping!! Kenny and I went to a movie and dessert with some friends on Friday night and my cramping was pretty bad! So on Saturday morning I peed on the stick and the test was a DUD! It didn't even work. But I couldn't pee on another one because I didn't have to pee anymore... Kenny had a intramural football game that morning so we went to that and I just kept drinking water so that I could be ready when we get home. I still didn't have to pee and hour later so we went and watched my BIL's basketball game. I finally had to pee so we rushed home and this time I peed in a cup JUST IN CASE this test was a dud as well. It wasn't..

IT WAS POSITIVE!!

We couldn't believe our eyes! So I quickly took another test to make sure. Positive AGAIN! Those are the 2 bottom tests in the picture. We hugged each other tight because this has never happened before. So I called the doctor and she gave us further instructions. She said she would call me on Monday with further instructions but I could come in for my appointment to make sure I did actually ovulate(I needed proof). 

Monday morning I went in and I thought I was just going to get a blood test but I got an ultrasound. I didn't mind at all because that was we could see if the follicle was still there or not. 

IT WAS GONE!!

I went to the appointment on my own because Kenny started his new position at work that morning. I was ecstatic! My body actually ovulated on it's own. What a miracle!

So I told Kenny and our family the good news! Everyone was beyond excited for us. Now we have to wait to go back in to take a blood pregnancy test on the 14th. In the meantime we are trying to stay positive because the chance of pregnancy every month is only 20%. 

Kenny and I leave for our anniversary cruise on the 15th. We will know whether or not we have a little baby on the way or not on the car ride home to California. We pray every night for our little blessing so hopefully we will be celebrating on the cruise. If we are not pregnant Kenny and I have a agreed that we will have a carefree vacation! 

XOXO

TRIALS;

The past few weeks have been pretty hard on me. Lately I have been thinking about a certain trial that I've been going through and it has been really hard on me. Of course it has been hard on Kenny too, but when my body isn't doing what it's made to do.. you feel broken, guilty, and alone. 

"Without medical help it would take a miracle to get pregnant."

You know, as a woman you can feel when something just isn't right, you just have a feeling, a gut feeling you can't ignore. When I heard those words my heart broke. Everything I ever dreamed of shattered in a matter of seconds. 

Ever since I was a little girl I always dreamed what it would be like to be a Mother. I would pack them a sack lunch, drop them off at school, and be there to pick them up, I would take them to their soccer or baseball games and cheer them on from the stands. Reading bedtime stories, running around in the backyard with our dogs, waiting anxiously for Dad to get home from work, playing car games on long road trips, eating dinner together, kiss booboos, cuddle with them, just imagining their smiles when they are happy, and wiping their tears when they are hurt.

I have always wanted to be a Mom.

Although it's not impossible with today's technology, I wasn't expecting this journey, it's not what we had planned. I'm heartbroken. I would be lying if I said I was Okay. 

Infertility is a silent disease. You would be amazed how many couple's struggle to get pregnant on their own. Many people just don't talk about it and deal with it in silence. Kenny and I have been dealing with this issue for a few months now. Some may say that we haven't gotten pregnant because we haven't been trying for a year, and it just takes time. WELL, back in August we went to the doctor because I was having ovary pains and that is when this infertility journey started.

We tried a treatment with my OBGYN in September and it didn't work. My doctor wasn't very comforting and sucked at communicating with us. We had a horrible experience and after the treatment not working I felt pretty defeated. I was super sad, I would cry, and I couldn't stop thinking about it all. That's when we decided to put it on the back burner and go to a specialist in January. We went home for the holidays which was a great little vacation for us to not think about it so much, but when your family is constantly asking when you are going to have a baby it's really hard to just explain everything that you're going through. So we would just brush it off and say "Whenever we are blessed with a baby." Especially since we weren't even sure if I have ever ovulated.

So let's go back to a few weeks ago when we met with a specialist. Everything we thought was wrong with me was confirmed. I was diagnosed with PCOS. So began our next journey to try to get pregnant. When Kenny and I left the doctors office we felt so good about this doctor. She was caring, she told us our options, and told us we were in good hands because they have a high success rate for women with PCOS. It made us feel great!

TMI ALERT;
So I left with 2 prescriptions. One to make me start my period since I had gone so long without one(this is normal for me). The other to help my follicles grow to release an egg. I took the first medicine for 10 days then got my period on February 13th. I called the doctor right away and left a message because it was in the evening. On Friday I got a call back from the doctor and asked me to come in later that day for an ultrasound. So I go in and she checks to make sure I don't have any major cysts and everything looked great. She then printed me out a calendar on which days to take the Fermara which is what makes my follicles grow so I can release an egg.

So I went in yesterday for another ultrasound and my biggest follicle was at 12. In order for follicle to be mature it should be at a 20. I was a little disappointed, but I try not to get my hopes up to begin with because it doesn't always work the first or second time. It can take months to years, so I try not to get my hopes up. I go back in on Thursday to check how much more it has grown!!

We are very hopeful but try not to get excited! We hope this is out month!! We pray everyday for our little spirit, we are ready for you whenever you decided to come little one.

XOXO

WELCOME;

Hello,

We are the Chapple's!

My name is Lety & I am married to the most amazing man in the world! His name is Kenny & he is my high school sweetheart. We decided to tie the knot on March 23, 2013 & were sealed in the Los Angeles Temple for time & all eternity!     

A little bit about us,

We are bestfriends. I love to craft & he loves to play sports. We watch way too much TV & love watching romantic comedies. We love playing with Meko and spoil him with kisses everyday.

Our little baby Meko,

He loves to give kisses, he loves to cuddle, he loves to jump, he loves to play with bugs in the backyard, he loves when his Dad gets home from work, he loves treats, he loves taking naps, & he gets intimidated easily by people so he likes when you are lovable & sweet.

Happy Valentine's Day!

XOXO